Today, November 29, 2013 is my 50th
birthday. I tend to be a liberal user
of the exclamation point, but it didn’t feel appropriate after that first
sentence. I don’t feel excitement today,
nor am I feeling depressed. (This,
despite the fact that my 50th birthday falls on Black Friday) Today is just another day, albeit a day that
marks a certain milestone in my life.
Like most people, my life has been fraught with both
challenges and joyous moments. I have
wished for death, and I have celebrated life. I have felt hate, and I have experienced
love. I have held grudges, and I have
given forgiveness. Physical pain has
been my daily partner, and I have faced it daily, and conquered it more often
than not. That makes me pretty typical,
I’m a twin, did you know?
My twin brother, John and I were born one week after the assassination
of President John F. Kennedy. Thus, the
obvious name choices. Since this story
of my birth has been told many, many times by my mother, I have always felt
pride for being named for such a classy, beautiful person like Jacqueline Kennedy. However, I have somewhat failed
in my mission to be like her.
I’ve admired many women in my fifty years. The list includes many you may know, and
others you may not.
- Grace Kelly
- Margaret Thatcher
- Princess Diana
- Jeannie Robertson
- Linda Miles
- Nancy Reagan
- Barbara Bush
Being married to a musician lo these many years, I have met some famous musicians, namely Alan White of the band “Yes”; Roger Fisher and
Steve Fossen from “Heart”. From the band
STYX, Tommy Shaw, Todd Sucherman (who has allowed me to share some of his story
in my upcoming book), James JY Young, and Lawrence Gowan. Don Wilson of “The Ventures” has also shaken
I have been able to meet some of my heroes, too. (In truth, some of them became heroes after I
met them) Brad Paisley, Russell M Nelson, Steve Tyrell (who I have been on bed with), John Maxwell, Lance Miller, Ryan Avery, Rory Vaden, Darren LaCroix, Albert Mensah, and Kathy Ireland.
Yes, I have met many wonderful people — and they have met
Someday I’d like to meet Bill O’Reilly, Megyn Kelly, Phil Collins, Mel Gibson, Glenn Beck, George W. Bush, Oliver North, Dierks Bentley, Donny Osmond and
Brad Paisley—again. (I actually tried
to meet Donny Osmond when I was 14 years old.
While in Salt Lake City, I went to his brother’s home, knocked on the
door and asked for a picture of Donny. His
brother, Tom would not grant my request.
There are a few days in the last 50 years that I don’t ever
want to relive. The day I confronted my
childhood abuser; the day my father died; the day my son suffered a skull
fracture/brain injury; the 3 days in my life when I said goodbye to precious
family dogs; the day my car was repossessed; and the day we moved out of our
home from foreclosure.
On the bright side, there are some days that I would relive
over and over. The days that my children
were born; the day that my daughter got married; the day following my son’s
accident when we found him awake upon entering his hospital room; the day my 1st
grandson was born; the day I met my second grandson; each of the days when a
new puppy joined the family, and the day when I gave my first professional
speech. After these events, everything
other day has been gravy.
I’m so grateful for friends who have mentored me, stood by
me, and gave so much of themselves.
Like, the dear friend who sat next to me simply for support that day I
confronted my abuser; and the prayers from friends and strangers that ascended
to heaven when my son had his accident.
I’m so in awe that a friend would give me a car when mine was
repossessed, and friends who let us live in their home when our house was
relinquished. Loans have been given by
friends and family—loans that may never be repaid. Toys, cash, food, and blankets left on our
doorstep by anonymous strangers over the years still amazes me.
Yes, life has sucked at times. Life has attempted to suck joy and hope and
faith from my life. But it has not
succeeded. I have what I need, and I
have had what I wanted (see “the days I would live over” above). I will keep keeping on.
My husband and I have
survived many things in almost 31 years together, and I am confident that even
harder things are still to come our way.
But I made it to 50. I had
trouble envisioning this day when I was 20, or 30, or even 40. There have been days that I thought were
surely my last. But I’m still here.
I have been in room with a Prophet of God, and I have heard
him speak. I felt the Spirit of God in
that room, and in that man. I testify that Jesus Christ is the Savior of the
World, and my elder brother. I look forward to being with my Heavenly
Father and Heavenly Mother again. I
don’t know if I will get another 50 years out of this run, but with a bright
future on the other side, I guess it doesn’t really matter.